Luminous steely thread pulled longer ever tighter from womb to teen
Children pull away into their possibility by comparing me to freedom

The loneliness of a cell phone
The solitude of finding the right study desk deep within the library stacks

Time to look elsewhere;
Towards my own center of gravity,
Who do I comfort now?
What problems do I solve?
Where do I sit?

Why keep playing when someone gets hurt in every game?
Concussion
Consciousness
Consent
Contempt
Concise
Concrete
Confusion
Controversy

Heartache is a dictionary –
Each word a sling shot through learning something
wildly new and surprising
the hard way
and not in precise alphabetical order

There are no regrets for wearing the jersey of evolution
But I didn’t get the rules in time to make an informed decision

Now, grief and joy are in the ring daily
Opposing forces of love’s two sided tyranny

The breaks come with pen in hand and at the halfway point of an embrace Just long enough to keep me hooked

somewhere in the middle. 

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